Momories...

I'm I to forget the memories we had together...
The word s you said to me..
Those very sweet words,which I look back upon..
wandering if there were ever true to your heart...
I know there were...But now???Are the still..???

The Letter...
Dearest Liyana,
I know this is like the biggest difference in
communicating with you but I just felt I would like to to do it.
Anyway, like the fish soup & the chrysanthemum tea I bought for you?

I just want you to know babe that with everything
we share together, I really treasure every single moment of it.
You are alway on my mind and I'm always thinking about
you wherever I am or whatever I'm doing.
THIS RELATIONSHIP THAT WE HAVE IS TOUGH ONE BUT
ITS'S DEFINITELY NOT IMPOSSIBLE AND I'VE NEVER BELIEVE
THAT WE COULD NOT GO THRU IT TOGETHER.

AND WITH EVERY RELATIONSHIP IS BOUND TO HAVE ITS SETBACKS,
MOMENTS WHERE THE UNDERSTANDING PART OF THE RELATIONSHIP
COMES TO PLAY.
During this certain time, I really HOPE WE CAN BE THERE AS EACH
OTHER'S SUPPORT AND WORK IT OUT TOGETHER AS A COUPLE.
I once said in my blog that honesty, trust and understanding
are really important to the success of the relationship.

Adding to that will be communication and finally listening.
I know you can never be that perfect one for me and neither can I babe.
WHAT REALLY MATTER AT THE END OF THE DAY IS OUR LOVE FOR
EACH OTHER AND WHAT WE SHARE. WE BOTH CAN OVERLOOK CERTAIN
TRAITS OR CHARACTERS OF OURSELVES SO I BELIEVE AS LONG AS
WE BOTH KNOW THAT WE HAVE TRIED OUR BEST, THEN I REALLY
THINK IT'S SUFFICIENT FOR US.

With that, I would like to say I'm fully confident of our relationship.
THE DAY I LEFT YOU AT THE AIRPORT,
I KNEW THAT I WOULD DEFINITELY MISS YOU.
BUT DEEP INSIDE,I KNEW THAT ALTHOUGH WE ARE THOUSANDS OF
KILOMETERS APART, THE LOVE THAT WE SHARE HAS NO BOUNDARIES.
DISTANCE IS JUST ONE OF THE THINGS BUT IT CAN NEVER PREVENT
MY LOVE AND CARE FOR YOU SYG. BABY,
I SAID YOU ARE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE AND YOU REALLY ARE.
YOU MEAN SO MUCH TO ME THAT SOMETIMES
I'M AT LOST IN THOUGHTS ABOUT IT.
________________________________________________

This is the very letter you wrote to me...
I retyped every word from it..
Those in caps are the very word I keep in heart.Knowing at
that time how strong our love was.. now all i see are words..
with no meaning to it...
you are willing to forget all that was said all those
sweet n caring words of yours and jst walk away from it all...
after all that we've been through...

Im trying to stand on all tat we had..and try to persuade
you to carry on what was already stared and was blooming...
I know how crushed you are by all these...
and no matter how crushed I am i still trying to stand
on what's ever that left of this love we once had...
your my last hope in love...
and some how i don' see light at the end of the tunnel no more...

Confession.....

I know what I said last night was totally not called for..
Didn't mean to call you an asshole.. But your actions was really made you look like one..

You say you love as so...You love that much..or very much..Why do the decision of breaking..When things can be worked out.
For you your decision might have ended the problems you saw..But not the pain that it will carry for a long time..I don't know if you actual realize that.

You wanted more from me...you could have just told me..What you wanted...I could see if I do the changes for you..And yes it will take time...patience has been there, You say your patience..Then why suddenly stop...

You wanted you ideal girlfriend to give you her full attention..I changed my habits of doing things while talking to you..I give you my full attention..You wanted me to listen to you..I did...You wanted my full honesty..I gave...
I tell you day in & day out where I am..What I'm doing...Whom I'm with...
I do whatever you wanted me to do...Still you want more...OKs...

You want me talk to you till late night..I can...But there will be days where I'll be dead tired..all cause from work..I give you more hours of my day then I do 4 myself,my friends and family.. Still those actions don't count for you...

Yes there are days where we go silent, cause there's nothing happening around..there's nothing much to talk about..Then when we are on9..there's nothing much to talk cause i rather be talking to out on the phone n hear you voice..you don't realize is that when your doing or viewing something..I would be just staring at you..looking at what your doing..And I'll be just smiling at myself..

Yes we have many similarities..Yet we have our differences..Which I you for..I didn't fall in love with you for what try to be or what you lack off or what your not..
But for who you are true from the heart..Honest,sensible,caring,loving..Yes other guys have these qualities too but what they don't have is unconditional love you gave me...your actions to me,may be louder then my words could speak but its not the actions that i count the most its your words and how you tell me how much you love me...with your warm sweet tone.. assuring me of you undying love..which I guess has ended..or dyed...your loving actions are just extras I got which i love...
I know that how you are..to you actions speaks louder then words..bu for me...words means a million things..

I don't know if this would make much difference to the situation that we are in now..
But just know that my love for you will never end...

Sleepless...

U might be asleep by now..But i can't not after all that was said & done...
Mind is confusing me...might have been the long island i had just now...
but been like this the whole night...

Well my loving actions and efforts have now gone down the drain...
All have been a waste...yes a waste..y..cause of u wanting more then wat u already have...
or in Ur words getting the minimum...

are u even grateful with wat u already have...or wat was given to u...i noe its only human to want more...bt make do with wat u have as my dad say...
u want more wat more u want from me??..more love..given to u..more time from me.. squeezing as much as i can from what i hve..

can say much..all have been said to u..all that u needed to noe have been given to u for the past 2-3 months...all that's need to be said also...

all u need to noe is i love u no matter wat...tats hw deep my love for u is..