Sleepless night....

I can't sleep...
And I don't know why...
Too much thoughts in mind..???

I wander at times...
Am I doing the best I can do....
Or are my efforts still insufficient...??
Am I doing too little...
Am I scarifying enough...
Or am I scarifying at all???

Have I done enough...??
Or should I do more???
Have I done what have said I'll do...
Are they good enough??
Have I been changing my ways??
Or am I still the same...
Or at least have I changed some ways of mine...

All day along...
Everyday....
Questions after questions are in my head...
Asking me...
Trying to find the answers...
I'm left wandering at my own actions and thoughts at times...

Nothing here makes sense at all...
All is just wandering in my head..
I just needed to get it out..
Don't have to think much...
Its all me....
Has always been...

Choose....

To chose to throw away an old friend or to keep...
That's an unfair choice someone must make....
But it's a choice I have too make..

I'm sorry my friend..
But I have to do so...
Or see my love one being disappointed with me...

It may be contradicting to you my dear..
But its just something I feel very heavy to do...
Would you do such a thing if I'm in your shoes..??
You wont know cause it never happen to you...

Well...I may sleep with a heavy heart..
But I'm truly sorry to have to do so...
It's the best for all I guess...
May you find your own happiness....