Sorry..

To my dear,

Dear,I'm sorry about what was written in my previous post. I didn't mean to hurt your feelings. It's just who I am as a kid. I never really tell people my feelings..Or what bothering me deep inside..Cause I'm use to not have anyone one to tell.. For you to want to want me to express all that's deep within is kinda tough.. But like what I said in the sms I sent you..I'll change it..And try to tell you how I fell..I guess my depression is still here??? I don't know..Dear I didn't mean to hurt your feelings..
I was just trying to express my feelings out..Cause I'm never able to say it out loud..I guess writing it out is the best way for me..As all can be said out at once..And I don't have to think so hard on how to give an explanation if you or anyone don't understand what is being said.

Dear please forgive me for hurting your feelings..It was seriously not intended to do so..I was just merely expressing my thoughts that were bothering me inside..

from your love..
Liyana

Confusion...

I'm in deep confusion...
I don't know what's happening to me..
I trust you..but my heart is having doubt...

Its driving me CRAZY..here...being all alone...
While your there...at least you got a friend to talk to..
Don't come telling me that you are here for me...
Cause your not the person for me to let out my confusion to...
I need an outside opinion....

Guess I can only let it out here on my blog where you'll read..
Sorry..but I'm bad at communicating via voice..
My only way is to let it out by either writing it out,blogging it..or sms...
Yet not everything can be expressed out by words...

Only you can feel it..words some how don't seem to help tell you everything that needs to be told..

Every time it comes to relationships...
This insecurity feeling comes in..
I feel soo insecure at times..
Well it kinda currently how I'm feeling right now...
For the past few days...
And its eating me inside...
Why must you be thousand miles away....??
Why must I have this feeling eating in me...??
It just makes matters worst...

Sorry dear..I'm seriously imperfect..
Hope I'm not asking much from you...

Annoyed...

Been getting annoyed and stress easily recently..
Don't know why..but a lot of things seem to get on my nerves..
Don't ask me why is it so..cause it's just is..

Can't seem to tell you what bugging me about you drinking..
Case it just gets me all frustrated and annoyed...
Which I hate..
So ya...

Can't seem to be able to concentrate on things...
nor can I tell people about what I'm feeling..
Cause they can't seem to understand my situation..

Babe...just a gentle reminder that puasa is coming...
U should know what I'm referring to...
I don't wanna be like controlling you or anything
But just wanna remind you..
cause it's your life an all...so ya...

bye...

hehehe....

YEAH!!!!! FINALLY!!! I can use the dam net..hahaha
Its been driving me nuts the past week...
Well anyways...nothing much happen..so ya..

Ohh..going to the dam zoo tomorrow for my class "bonding" event..
Don't really wanna go cause waste money..(I too broke)..
Also..I got to rush back to school for netball..
DAM!!! I'm gonna be dam tired sia...DIE!!!..hahaha

Shit got to finish my Design project..like A.S.A.P!!!hahaha
Still got report to do..hahah..
Finally got the dam Adobe CS3 working on my laptop...
Well gtg bye...Got work to do...

PIX!!!

For more pics view my profile at FB..

updates...

Mum's birthday was on Sunday...
So we went out for dinner at Sempang Bedok...
At Chef's Bob restaurant called Sedap Corner...
Quite nice food...
Took pics...(Update it once I upload to my laptop)

Been Feeling down the whole dam day....
All cause I stress about money and my bills...
Still in debt for that....Can't ask friends...
Cause it kinda a lot of cash..
DAM I NEED A FUCKING JOB!!!!

Doing some job hunting tomorrow after school...
I'm like seriously scraping every penny I have...
That's how bad of a situation I am in right now...
sorry baby of you are gonna be upset about me net again...
Please somehow don't tell me...Cause I have a feeling it might just get me irritated...

Well have fun with your brother since his in town..
LOVE N MISSING YOU....
xoxoxoxxoxo

i'm sorry...

I'm sorry baby..I really am...
I'm trying my best to get the networking...
But it seems to not wish to work...

I know you really really really miss me...
And I really really really miss you too....
I'll see what I can do to get it start working again...K dear...


Please don't be sad anymore...
Cause I too will feel what your feeling...
And I don't like seeing my sayang all sad and moody...
But at least I was able to make you smile yesterday night...hahahha

All you need to know is that as each day passes..
My love for you grows deeper...
And never have I felt like this before....

So be strong my love....

I love you my Syahmi....
oxoxoxxoxo