What's going on???...

I can't seem to figure out some stuff
That's surrounding me...
Some stuff are still confusing me...

But some are already starting to clear up in my mind...
....
But the best part is that...
I never been so happy...
Like always smiling when I'm out..
Or the fact that I'm laughing a lot...

Maybe its cause of the group of people
I've been around with lately...
They sure know how to make people laugh a lot...
hahahha....
Seriously...I've never laughed so much in 2 weeks...

Wow 2 weeks gone from my holidays...hahaha...
That's fast..With all that has happened to me...
I kinda think it was kinda childish of me...
To have so many feelings at one time..
Then can't make up my mind on what I want...
Or don't want in life..hahah

But things are sure clearing up...
I guest my dark clouds are clearing away now...

WHAT DO I WANT???

What do you want??? Randomly...
In life?? What do you want??
Or what do you want now???
In current life situation...

I can't seem to make a decision
In what I want...Which include guys...
So randomly what do I want...???

That's the question thats been
In my head since last night..
I don't know what deep shit I'm
In now...Cause I got no idea
Who or What I want now...

Dam it...Only if my mind can
Stop playing games with my...
I can't decide...Yet I want to..
Before things get too serious or too
Deep before I can get myself out...

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HATE THIS FEELING!!!!!!!

All Hanged Over

Typing this as my hangover is going away...
So don't mind me for grammatical error..
hahahah

Why should I get hang over with a guy
I just knew..
Or even worst with someone I just
Recently met...Like my workmates..
hahhaha...
I don't know..

Even better...I am told not to
Lock my heart away...
Cause I might just miss a chance with a great guy...
Of which I know would happen...
Yet I'm still gona do so...

Cause I did already say
That I am keeping my heart lock away
For reasons only...
Well many have already known

Reason being I just don't
Have the strength to keep
Picking myself up after ever bad
Break up...
Seriously Dude!!!...I can't...And I don't...

First time is a lesson..
Second time is fair...
Third time is...FUCKED UP!!!!

Thats what I say...
So i open my options...
Yet there is this temptation where
It includes younger charming guys...
Whom are only a year or two younger then me...
But I just can't put my finger on it..

[ Well as I type this.. I like crossed eyed & feeling like vomiting...
But I just can't..Or mummy will ask wat happened to me..]

OVER!!!!!

Yes!!! Finally exams are over!!!
And now comes my holidays!!!...
Yeah!!..Can't wait to have fun And Party!!!!hahahha
YESS!!!!!!!!!! haahahahaha...