HURT!!!

To actually read that you doubt me was painful.
To actually know that you don;t have a trust in me was painful..
Then I wander when you say all those times that you trust...
Was it all a fake? Was it all a mask so that I would give you the same amount of trust you gave me...

But hearing you tone of voice on the phone...
Being doubtful for my reasons to meet my friend was so hurting..
But i had a reason...
You don't know him..And even if you did...you would get all jealous..

I didn't want you feel as such..
So I made it simple...
If simple is not wanted...
Then I have no clue what else is there to be done..

I'm at wits end...I'm losing my strength in this relationship..
Yet is has only began...But my strength has been out stretch over its limits...
Till I'm just running on spare batteries..

Not once have i doubted you...
With the amount of temptations around you..
Which guy would not be tempted..
Which guy would not want to "have fun" with the ang mos around there...
"oh who knows he might be f**King some girl there while you wait for him here"..
The comments I get almost everyday by others...
who doubted you..& our relationship...
But I stood my ground and told them that you were not the type who wold do so...
Cause we "TRUSTED" each other...They believed me..
I believed you..cause I trusted you...

But since you said those painful words to me...
I would have never ever thought that someone you loved dearly would say those things to me..
And the worst part is..its he !st time I'm hearing it...
Can I forgive you...I don't know...
Can I ever forget it... don't think so...

All I did was to keep your heart happy...
All I did was to make you happy..
All I did was to be your perfect girlfriend..
All I wanted was a boyfriend who understands me..And
allow me to have my own time with my guy friends without him to worry or have doubts..

Well I guess not then...No guy has been able to for fill this small request of mine...

good bye n good nite