ANRGY!!!! FRUSTRATED!!!!

WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO OR SAY FOR YOU UNDERSTAND ME.....

IF ALL I SAY MAKES YOU THINK ABOUT THIS ABOUT THAT....
MIGHT AS WELL I DON'T SAY A THING AT ALL.....

IF MY ACTIONS ARE EITHER NOT YOUR TYPE OF "PERFECT GIRLFRIEND" SHOULD BE...
THEN I'M SORRY...
I'M NOT!!!!

I'M RUNNING LIKE MAD HERE TRYING TO FIGURE OUT THINGS...
THEN YOU'LL THINK I'M NOT CONSIDERING YOUR FEELINGS...
ALWAYS HAVE...AND ALWAYS HAD!!!!!!
WHY IS IT I DON'T DO MUCH THINGS THAT I KNOW WILL HURT YOUR FEELINGS...
YET THE SMALL THINGS I DO OR SAY SEEMS TO..OH WAIT...IS HURTING YOU...
I DON'T GET IT AT ALL.....
AM I THAT BAD AS A GIRLFRIEND????
AM I THAT DEMANDING???
AM I THAT USELESS, PATHETIC, UNGRATEFUL, STUPID GIRLFRIEND..???
WHO CAN'T EVENT MAKE HER BOYFRIEND HAPPY....?????

BUT IT'S YOUR OWN FAULT TO BLAME IF YOU THINK TOO MUCH OF THINGS....
GO FIGURE OUT WHAT YOU REALLY WANT FROM ME...
AND I'M NOT REFERRING TO LOVE,HONESTY,TRUST AND COMMUNICATION...
CAUSE I'VE BEEN GIVING THEM TO YOU...AND IS STILL TRYING TO....

BUT IT SEEMS ALL MY ACTIONS FOR YOU HAVE COME TO WASTE....
HERE'S SOMETHING THAT WILL HELP YOU....
DON'T HAVE TO THINK OF WHAT YOU DID WRONG TO ME....
CAUSE THE ONLY FAULT YOU DID WAS NOT TRUST ME....

YES I'M STILL AT IT...CAUSE I'M NOT SATISFIED....
BECAUSE YOU GOT ME AT A LOST....
SAYING YOU TRUST ME YET YOU ACTUALLY DOUBTED ME....
SAYING YOU REASSURED ME DOES NOT PUT THINGS BACK IN PLACE FOR ME...

YOU SAY HOW SELFISH I AM ALL YOU WANT..
BUT FOR TRUST TO HIT ME MORE THEN ONCE IS PAINFUL ENOUGH...
I STAND BY THAT WORD...
LIKE I SAID..
LOVE, YOU CAN LOVE ANYONE
HONEST,JUST BE HONEST
COMMUNICATE, THERE ARE A MILLION WAYS TO DO THAT...
BUT TO TRUST SOMEONE..
IS NOT EASY...
ESPECIALLY WITH YOUR HEART..

I KNOW YOU'LL THINK THAT JUST BECAUSE
WHATEVER I SAID TO YOU FOR THE PAST 2-3 DAYS
SEEMS AS THOUGH I DOUBTED YOU LOVE...
I NEVER!!!! NOT EVEN THE INTENTION OF IT...
BUT I'M BEGINNING TO WANDER
SINCE YESTERDAY NIGHT..WHEN I SAID I LOVE YOU..
AND YOU NEVER REPLIED...
YOU REASON WAS...
" I WON'T SAY IT UNLESS I MEAN IT.."
SO YOU RATHER LEAVE ME HANGING...
RATHER THEN TO SAY SOMETHING... AND THAT DOES NOT INCLUDE "I KNOW"

YOU ASK TO THINK ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS...
WELL I'VE ALWAYS HAVE ...
NOW I'M GONNA BE SELFISH AND TELL U THIS
GO FIGURE WHAT YOU REALLY WANT FROM ME....
I GIVE WHAT WAS ASKED...AND I TRY TO GIVE MORE..
FROM WHATEVER STRENGTH LEFT THAT'S IN ME...
I AM SERIOUSLY AT WITS END HERE WITH YOU.....