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I know what you mean. I too don't want to be in that position again. So I'll try my best to not let you down. While I am allowing you to be there for me but a step at a time. Like you say that every step we take is a step closer and closer to making all those fears and doubts go away.

I am treasuring every moment we have spend time getting to know each other better, in the most modern way..which is via internet. haahah... I have to say its the most interesting way ever.

As I let you into my heart slowly..I really hope that we can make this last a life time.Knowing that hurt will always be there. I know we can fight it through.hahah

Good nite swet dreams...

Scared....

I know I said that I have feelings for you.But what you don't know is that I'm scared as hell. Scared as hell to get hurt or be hurt. I am locking my heart away,but I'm scared that I'll get hurt or hurt to. And I don't like either feelings..

I'm not cheating your feelings nor am I giving you the wroing impression about what I feel or what so ever.But it's just how I feel.

I know you can understand how I feel. That's why I'm telling you. I do like you..Just scared..hmmm...Guess i do fear somethnings. I know that you are to live life with no fear..But all that I have been through, the fear just got to me.

Promise...

We made a promise today that we will not go out with another sex,unless its in a group of friends..Like when I'm out with my guys..Its a whole group but not only with one person...

Some may say that " don't you think id kinda silly since you are not officially together..." or " oks...what's the motive of it..?"..
Well,it may sound silly and all..But I'm committed to wait for him. And did say once I've locked my heart way..But now I complete my sentence by adding this.." I am not going to fall in love,cause I'm locking my heart away for him."(You know who you are)..hahaha...

So we both are now committed to each other...For how long and till how far will these go on, only God knows..hehehe...True what...

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My feelings are getting stronger. But I don't want to get over excited over something I know that's not secure yet. I do hope that this happiness of mine will last me a life time.

We've been describing each other's other half. Even before we really got to know each other. I realize that you might be the half I've been waiting for all this time. You could be the "One".

Like you say, we got closer day by day. With changes on me that I've realized, which I know I rarely did last time. Which is to smile. I know I can't genuinely smile. Usually I smile while I laugh,but now I don't have to laugh to smile. That I thank you for it. Now I can't wait to see what the future has to bring us.

School!!! so irritating,for the fact that you people don't even know me. Cause you don't make the effort to. Your too busy with you CLAN...So full of yourselves... Why must it be us who break from our group.. Not you..Ever dam school project you people are in always in the same group. Even when told that preferred to be split up.

And for you to say or asked my friend that was insulting to us..WTF!!! At least we are able to work on our own.. !! Unlike you people. Must always be stick together as if you are glued to each other's assess.. Hahaha...Now that's funny...Now do me a little favor and stop judging me from what you see...I know I'm noisy, irritating and so ever. But what's in me you don't have a fucking clue. So ya..Stop your childish behavior..Old enough to come up front and speak what's on your mind.
BTW..I am speaking my mind now..By blogging it..hahahah...

bye people!!