WHAT DO I WANT???

What do you want??? Randomly...
In life?? What do you want??
Or what do you want now???
In current life situation...

I can't seem to make a decision
In what I want...Which include guys...
So randomly what do I want...???

That's the question thats been
In my head since last night..
I don't know what deep shit I'm
In now...Cause I got no idea
Who or What I want now...

Dam it...Only if my mind can
Stop playing games with my...
I can't decide...Yet I want to..
Before things get too serious or too
Deep before I can get myself out...

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HATE THIS FEELING!!!!!!!

All Hanged Over

Typing this as my hangover is going away...
So don't mind me for grammatical error..
hahahah

Why should I get hang over with a guy
I just knew..
Or even worst with someone I just
Recently met...Like my workmates..
hahhaha...
I don't know..

Even better...I am told not to
Lock my heart away...
Cause I might just miss a chance with a great guy...
Of which I know would happen...
Yet I'm still gona do so...

Cause I did already say
That I am keeping my heart lock away
For reasons only...
Well many have already known

Reason being I just don't
Have the strength to keep
Picking myself up after ever bad
Break up...
Seriously Dude!!!...I can't...And I don't...

First time is a lesson..
Second time is fair...
Third time is...FUCKED UP!!!!

Thats what I say...
So i open my options...
Yet there is this temptation where
It includes younger charming guys...
Whom are only a year or two younger then me...
But I just can't put my finger on it..

[ Well as I type this.. I like crossed eyed & feeling like vomiting...
But I just can't..Or mummy will ask wat happened to me..]

OVER!!!!!

Yes!!! Finally exams are over!!!
And now comes my holidays!!!...
Yeah!!..Can't wait to have fun And Party!!!!hahahha
YESS!!!!!!!!!! haahahahaha...

FallinG....

I keep feeling empty inside me...
But I know what's missing within me
Its just that I at the moment I cannot
Fill that emptiness...

But all I can do is to fill it
With enjoyment..
Which is clubbing..
Yet after all that furness...
The emptiness still gets to you...hahaha...
So that sux big time..

But at least I still got friends
That has enabled me to forget about the emptiness
Time has been pasting at a speed of which
I cannot tell if its fast or slow..

Yet I want to find that "Mr Right" soon...
However I am not letting
My heart get hurt yet...
I'm still fixing myself from the last fall
I had.. Thank you to the guy who has broken me...

Now I still have to keep focus in my current goals
In life...
Of which is to complete school, find a job..
Start saving to pay my parents back for my school fees,
save for my weeding day...In which I do not intend to use my parents money...
After school get a Diploma...either in poly or by private..art least if I do
Take private I can go for a Degree..hahahaha....

Well we have to now see... What life has installed for us...